Rubber, Road & Jehovah-Rapha

'You trusted Me when it came to moving down to TN and knowing I'd do great things through that move.  You trusted Me when things got rough with Neal's PTSD and when the storms overwhelmed you.  What happened?  You stopped trusting Me all of the sudden.  You got through half of this test called trust.  What are you going to do for the second half?  Once you got down to your new home I provided you, you stopped trusting Me in the little things of this life.  You let yourself be bogged down by your lack of trust in Me, your Savior! You started trusting in people and the situations you thought they had power over.  You trusted employers for a job, people to fulfill the desires of your heart and what you'd like to see happen in your life. You've trusted in people's ability (or so you thought, people's power/control) to solve conflict, trust in a board of trustees and your lawyer more than me,  you've trusted still too much in yourself.  Here is where the rubber meets the road, which way will you turn?  Child, have you not seen how faithful I am?  You say it and I know you believe it some but you don't believe it 100%. You're too afraid to break down these walls and trust Me (the one who gives you this very breath). Can't you see I desire with all my heart to know with all of your heart that I'm not of this world. I'm not everyone else who has wounded you, I'm the one who loved you so much as to sacrifice my only Son then to turn my head from Him when He called out to Me on that cross.  I love you that much, don't you think you can trust me with the little stuff then?  Again, here is where the rubber meets the road, come follow me.  Follow Me to the place of full reliance and trust in Me, your Jehovah-Rohi (your shepherd), your Jehovah-Rapha (your healer), your Jehovah-Jireh (your provider).