Shut Down-Feb. 2, 2006
2/6/2006 Dear God, We need you. So often have I prayed that Neal would turn to you once again. So often I have prayed with all my heart for this, I've been praying this for a while now. We talked about a few things tonight that needed to be out in the open but one conversation isn't enough. It seems that Neal has completely shut down, turned off his heart since we've got married. This hurts me so much. It breaks my heart knowing that Neal doesn't have a desire for you Lord or anything else any more. God, what happened to him? Is it something I did? Please reveal things to me! ..... Please God, correct my husband's heart. Help him find himself in you God, not in the MDSP. ..... You spoke through Mr.John on Sunday night. Does this mean that this time is going to be different? Oh God please! Please! You revealed to Mr. John tonight that You were going to use us and that we won't have to wait very long because we are mature for our age. Oh Lord