Pruning

Gardening

It’s cold and bitter outside but I’m dong some major gardening, though not in God’s physical earth, in my soul, heart and mind.
Life’s certainly been tough the past 7 years, hardest the past 2 but God will be brought glory through it all and only good will come of it!  I’m a determined person, no talking me out of it.  Satan has tried his hardest to let “my weeds” cultivate.  It’s hard looking at yourself in the mirrors, reflecting on your heart and mind’s state is difficult/challenging in deed.  It’s so easy to see someone else’s faults but Satan has a way of convincing you that the condition your heart and soul and mind is in now is fine enough when in fact that’s a weed right there, not being able to shed light to darkness.  Anger, bitterness, discontentment, anxiety, fear are the major weeds in my life I need to pull from my heart.
How can I expect God to use my life in a great manner if I still have darkness and weeds rooting themselves in my heart and mind?  So….I’m on the path to some “spring cleaning” or some “spring gardening” in my life.  It’s going to be tough and reveal hurts but it will be well worth it for my Jesus and God!

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